Out-of-Body Experiences (OBE) seems to me the term less religious (or mystical) and more neutral than I find. The OBE in my case consists in experiencing a subjective sensation of leaving the body. It is not mere belief or self-deception, I EXPERIENCE a feeling of leaving the body. I perceive that I leave my body and, truly, I don't know if I go out effectively or if something else happens. I give it the name of Out-of-Body Experience so that in this text you can identify what I mean by approximate precision.
The first experiences were some far removed from the others (about seven months apart from each other) and at the beginning I had taken them as simple "weird" dreams, without having any way of seeing that some experiences were related to others. Nor could I investigate what the subject was about because I forgot that I had these experiences.
I remember well that, before having the experience, I generally entered a Sleep Paralysis (SP). These experiences were always traumatic for me and I was desperate to get out of there. Most of the time (if not always) I was very afraid when I experienced entering an SP. What I don't know for sure is that if these SP experiences were a gradual prelude to everything that would happen to me later.
Sleep Paralysis consists of a state in which one cannot move because the system that mobilizes the muscles has been deactivated. It often occurs when we are not aware. It is said that this always happens so that we do not harm ourselves while we are sleeping (which seems quite logical to me). The point is that somehow some people, both when they are about to fall asleep and when they are about to wake up, are aware at the moment when the muscles are deactivated, resulting in the experience of Sleep Paralysis. Personally, when this happens to me I perceive ringing in my ear, tightness in my chest, I think my eyes tear (something more exact could be that I open and close my eyes quickly, although this is just a sensation, I never saw myself). I feel that something under my body "sucks" me there, I have many palpitations; and well, as I had mentioned above, I was very afraid and desperate before. I also experienced what could be called "hallucinations" (and next to them I had the greatest fears I could ever have; I think I will tell this later).
My way of sleeping
Usually, my way of sleeping starts on my back. So I watch TV or read a book. When I'm going to sleep, I turn around and face down. It depends on how my bed is laid, the right or left hand is halfway out and hanging. Many times it happened to me that because I stayed like this for a long time my hands were cushioned. In the beginning, I played somehow with this cushioning because it seemed to me (or I had the feeling) that, knowing that my hands were still, I could move my fingers. Suppose, my right hand was halfway out of bed and hanging a certain distance from the floor: when that cushioning began, I had a sensation of movement or tingling (I think I perceived that my hand was closing, although I never did). I used to entertain myself with these situations before falling asleep. My first out-of-body experience, incomplete, happened while I thought I had a muffled hand.
Incomplete experiences
My beginnings in this type of experience were interacting (to put it in some way) with my hand. While I was almost asleep, face down, with a half-hung hand, I felt that hand was "moving," that is, I had the feeling that I could open and close my hand, although I knew that it really did not move. This happened to me while I had my face oriented to the opposite side of my hand or to the side of my hand: if my eyes were oriented to the right, sometimes, the hand that was hanging was the left and vice versa. The first time I had the feeling of moving my hand without actually moving it, I think I will have fallen asleep shortly. Then, the next day, the next night, the same thing did not happen to me, nor did I remember what happened the day before. Sometimes the same thing didn't happen to me until weeks and months later, which made it difficult for me to become aware that something different was happening outside of my common experience.
The next time this feeling of movement, almost asleep, happened to me, my right hand rose to the height of the back of my bed. I believed with certainty that in those moments my right hand, with everything and bones, had really risen to the back of the bed. But it was not like that.
The next thing I remember - and that I found absolutely infrequent and uncomfortable - was when, one night lying on my stomach, half asleep, my two hands rose above my head and at the height of the top of the back of my bed; being face down with both hands up is quite uncomfortable. This experience was extremely rare and inexplicable and only years later I could understand what happened there. I believe that this event was the beginning of everything, from my curiosity to all other sensations or experiences.
Events varied over the months: sometimes I perceived that the right hand was raised, sometimes that the left hand; sometimes I felt that both hands were raised; At other times I felt that one foot - or both - rose above the mattress of my bed. As for the events with my hands, I thought that they rose in flesh and blood, I don't remember exactly what I thought when the same thing happened to me with my feet. The funny thing to me is that in the following days I did not consider this as an extraordinary event but rather as a dream (although deep down I knew that these dreams were very different from everything I remembered dreaming). What is strange to me about myself and my personality, is the skeptical attitude towards everything that happened to me. At that time - and now, perhaps in a qualitatively different way - I did not consider these experiences as something important.
Available tomorrow! đ Next post, Get out of the body. About my Out-of-Body-Experiences (OBE): https://feetandheads.blogspot.com/2020/02/get-out-of-body-OBE.html
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| Astral Body from Carrington and Muldoon. Wikipedia |
The first experiences were some far removed from the others (about seven months apart from each other) and at the beginning I had taken them as simple "weird" dreams, without having any way of seeing that some experiences were related to others. Nor could I investigate what the subject was about because I forgot that I had these experiences.
I remember well that, before having the experience, I generally entered a Sleep Paralysis (SP). These experiences were always traumatic for me and I was desperate to get out of there. Most of the time (if not always) I was very afraid when I experienced entering an SP. What I don't know for sure is that if these SP experiences were a gradual prelude to everything that would happen to me later.
Sleep Paralysis consists of a state in which one cannot move because the system that mobilizes the muscles has been deactivated. It often occurs when we are not aware. It is said that this always happens so that we do not harm ourselves while we are sleeping (which seems quite logical to me). The point is that somehow some people, both when they are about to fall asleep and when they are about to wake up, are aware at the moment when the muscles are deactivated, resulting in the experience of Sleep Paralysis. Personally, when this happens to me I perceive ringing in my ear, tightness in my chest, I think my eyes tear (something more exact could be that I open and close my eyes quickly, although this is just a sensation, I never saw myself). I feel that something under my body "sucks" me there, I have many palpitations; and well, as I had mentioned above, I was very afraid and desperate before. I also experienced what could be called "hallucinations" (and next to them I had the greatest fears I could ever have; I think I will tell this later).
My way of sleeping
Usually, my way of sleeping starts on my back. So I watch TV or read a book. When I'm going to sleep, I turn around and face down. It depends on how my bed is laid, the right or left hand is halfway out and hanging. Many times it happened to me that because I stayed like this for a long time my hands were cushioned. In the beginning, I played somehow with this cushioning because it seemed to me (or I had the feeling) that, knowing that my hands were still, I could move my fingers. Suppose, my right hand was halfway out of bed and hanging a certain distance from the floor: when that cushioning began, I had a sensation of movement or tingling (I think I perceived that my hand was closing, although I never did). I used to entertain myself with these situations before falling asleep. My first out-of-body experience, incomplete, happened while I thought I had a muffled hand.
Incomplete experiences
My beginnings in this type of experience were interacting (to put it in some way) with my hand. While I was almost asleep, face down, with a half-hung hand, I felt that hand was "moving," that is, I had the feeling that I could open and close my hand, although I knew that it really did not move. This happened to me while I had my face oriented to the opposite side of my hand or to the side of my hand: if my eyes were oriented to the right, sometimes, the hand that was hanging was the left and vice versa. The first time I had the feeling of moving my hand without actually moving it, I think I will have fallen asleep shortly. Then, the next day, the next night, the same thing did not happen to me, nor did I remember what happened the day before. Sometimes the same thing didn't happen to me until weeks and months later, which made it difficult for me to become aware that something different was happening outside of my common experience.
The next time this feeling of movement, almost asleep, happened to me, my right hand rose to the height of the back of my bed. I believed with certainty that in those moments my right hand, with everything and bones, had really risen to the back of the bed. But it was not like that.
The next thing I remember - and that I found absolutely infrequent and uncomfortable - was when, one night lying on my stomach, half asleep, my two hands rose above my head and at the height of the top of the back of my bed; being face down with both hands up is quite uncomfortable. This experience was extremely rare and inexplicable and only years later I could understand what happened there. I believe that this event was the beginning of everything, from my curiosity to all other sensations or experiences.
Events varied over the months: sometimes I perceived that the right hand was raised, sometimes that the left hand; sometimes I felt that both hands were raised; At other times I felt that one foot - or both - rose above the mattress of my bed. As for the events with my hands, I thought that they rose in flesh and blood, I don't remember exactly what I thought when the same thing happened to me with my feet. The funny thing to me is that in the following days I did not consider this as an extraordinary event but rather as a dream (although deep down I knew that these dreams were very different from everything I remembered dreaming). What is strange to me about myself and my personality, is the skeptical attitude towards everything that happened to me. At that time - and now, perhaps in a qualitatively different way - I did not consider these experiences as something important.
Available tomorrow! đ Next post, Get out of the body. About my Out-of-Body-Experiences (OBE): https://feetandheads.blogspot.com/2020/02/get-out-of-body-OBE.html
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